Wednesday, July 21, 2010

So you say you're under a curse? So what, so's the whole damn world

Stop!
Listen.
What do you hear?
Stop again!
Before you say "Nothing. I don't hear anything." listen again; listen harder.
Do you hear breathing? Do you hear wind? Do you hear cars passing by, people talking, birds chirping, trees dancing? Do you hear the rain on the window pain, laughter, or buzz on the radio?
Most of these sounds we simply try to ignore because they are so irksome. But the obnoxious sounds you so hastily disregard as noise are actually the sounds of potentially great music.
Every sound has a note,
a rhythm,
a reason to be heard.
Music is everywhere, and it is powerful. Why?
Because we hear it so much. Music effects us in ways we are not aware of. We are trained to hurry at honking sounds, be cautious at high pitched sirens, to think of Halloween when we hear pipe organs. Music moves us, drives us, and attracts us to everything that we define ourselves with.



Music - by definition- is "an art of sound in time that expresses ideas and emotions in significant forms through the elements of rhythm, melody, harmony, and color." according to Dictionary.com. Therefore, I believe that if a song does not accurately convey the so called "artists" true ideas and emotions, it is not really, nor can it ever be music.





In this day of electrically manufactured sound, it is hard to find any meaning in music anymore. (Other than the fact that everyone does lots of drugs, has lots of sex, and never have to suffer the repercussions.) But where is the emotion? Where is the actual person in that song? Is Lady Gaga really that worried about Alejandro? If Kesha is the person that she tells about in her songs, then she is one person I would NEVER care to meet. Why do we listen to such garbage and tell ourselves that "It doesn't reflect who I am." "I didn't write the song."
The truth is, the music we listen to DOES heavily reflect the kind of person we are. Just like food, we can put bad things into our mind that can make us sick, or worse, divert us from the values that we once believed we had.

I'd like to depict to you a feeling I had while listening to some music. I was half asleep lying down on my friends sofa in his living room when he put on a record by yet another band I had never heard of. (Sigur Ros) As I lay there floating in between consciousness, I find myself fully surrendered to the music. As the beats pulse through my veins and the chords brush across my cheeks, I am moved to a point of near hysteria. I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Every song is new, and more soothing than the last. I didn't have to listen to any profanity, and I didn't have to do any illegal drugs to have this experience. All it took was a little quieting of my frantic mind, and I was at peace. Everything, every little thing in that short amount of time that I was semi-unconscious on my friends couch, felt like it was going to be alright.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind


Very few things in life are worth worrying about.
Is love one of them?
Is love something that you have to nurture and tend to?
Is it as fragile and vulnerable as the very bones within my skin?

Or is it something that can take care of itself?
Can it take care of me?
Can it take care of us?
Where does love end?

Is love infinite?
Is this love?
Can it please be love?
What is love?

Now I question whether my feelings are true.
This is the part where worry turns to poison.
This is where I let my mind convince myself that maybe I'm wrong.
Now worry becomes fear.

Fear takes me by the throat and smiles.
It knows that it has power; that it is strong.
Then, like a dream, fear is kicked into trust.
Trust, not in myself, but in fate.

I believe in fate.
I feel mine in my pulse.
I'm not sure exactly what it will be...
But I've got a pretty good idea.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

I'm Yours

Weddings. There are an estimated 6,000 weddings a day in the United State. I've been looking forward to my wedding since I was little. I don't know what colors my flowers will be, or what I'm going to wear, I'm not a girl; but just the idea of getting to spend the rest of my life with some one I truly love is a fantastic concept.

However, the events of the actual day have been on my mind recently, due to my disinclined attendance of an unrenowned relatives ceremony. I'm sad to say that despite the favorable choice of music (thank you Jason Mraz!) I couldn't get past the bridesmaids decked in black dresses, and the idiotic chuckling of the groom. As goofy as that is to me, it looked like something you might find in People Magazine compared to another dumpy relatives "Special Day." THIS wedding was held just outside of their reception hall which just so happened to be a firework stand! The groom was dressed in his Naval uniform which isn't exactly horrible as much as it is lazy, and the groomsmen were dressed in Texas Flag button down shirts. Can you scream "Red Neck" any louder than that?!?

So no, I do not have my wedding planned, nor do I see mine being anywhere in the near future. If I am fortunate enough to get married though, I hope that it is as cool and fun as this one is....

Friday, June 18, 2010

Badges and Badges

My lips do a double-take
As my tongue produces the words.
For Heavens sake!
What dissonant notes come from my cords?
As if a hand were moving my mouth
His voice streams through my throught;
Not only teaching another wild youth,
But reminding me of what to do when times get tough.
And just as he was,
I speak to absent ears;
Ignorant to all, and just because
They already know it all in their single digit years.
My cheeks bend into a smile
As the echos from the past come to a close.
The voice still resonating all the while
Like a childish "I told you so!"

Sunday, June 13, 2010

I Think Im Going to (Austin)


For the first time in my life, I am going to be responsible for everything I do.
No more mommy to get you out of your fix,
No more saying "I didn't mean too." "It was an accident."
No more curfew,
No more home cooked meals,
No more brother bothering you,
No more family dinners.
Etc...
Its ALL on me now.
Will I mess up?
YES
Will I miss home?
YES
Will things be hard?
YES
Will I still have fun?
YES
Is everything gonna be OK?
...

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Stand By Me

As I was soaring through the sky, my nose inches from the scribbles of my green notebook, I looked up for a moment to rest my neck and saw this video being played on the "Continental Vision." Intrigued, I put my headphones into the jack on my arm rest to see what it was. Watch...

This video is BEAUTIFUL! That is a word I tend to use solely for things that I find truly beautiful. Yes, this was already a good song; proclaiming that nothing can get in the way of his love for the person as long as they just stick with him through thick and thin. (cliche, I know) But with this video, they have taken the song to another level. By recording different people from all over the world, it makes the message even grander. If we could all just unite as one human race, not whites/blacks/hispanics/gays/rich/poor etc., then we could withstand "The mountains...(crumbling into) the sea." United we are powerful. United we are BEAUTIFUL.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Only Heart (The Lovers Prayer)

I've been in love before;
The dates, the smiles, the kisses.
But I never knew up till now
That something important was missing.
The way you speak and hold my hands
Lets me know that you are here,
And wont let go of the gift wrapped heart
I've given to you, dear.
The feel of your toes tracing my leg
Sends chills down through my spine.
And every glance you send to me
Looks so far past my eyes.
My heart forgets its chief position
And feels your heart instead.
And in the seconds between its beats,
A love so strong is fed.
Oh, God above, if this be real,
Don't let me waste my breath.
Grant that I may hold her close
And be with her till death..