Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Getting Old Ain't For Whimps


People build faces like

we used to build cities

with sky scrapers reaching

towards our youth.

Remodeling, reconstructing,

and all in attempts to hold on to

a time in our lives where we were

the most confused.

I once told my Granddaddy

I never want to grow old.

And he smiled and said

That’s fine, but you’ll be

missing out.

He said that age is like

a mistress. She’ll push you

around and give you a

head ache, but the sex is

damn good.

He stopped and touched

his face, as if each line was

a memory or an old friend.

This man wears his wrinkles

with pride and it makes me

wonder why age seems so scary

to other people.

Wrinkles are just like old

medals indicating that

you’ve done something

right with your life. But the lady

on the screen must want her medals

secret, cause she has enough Botox

in her to hold a whole damn

city on her brow.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

I'll Meet You On My Pillow


I found myself

lying in bed, the weight of sleep
tugging at my eye lids like
memories. I

can't remember why, but
the night I first loved you
played over in my head.
The first embrace I can't

live up to, but try to
all the same. That
first time I knew why
I was alive.

Without intention, my eyes
close gently, and visions
start their work. But they
know they can't start without

you, because you're the
center of the show. A smile
will linger as the sleep show plays
the best times I've had with you.

The Pulse of Pavement



The parking lot looked almost beautiful
then we remembered it was a parking lot.

Blades of grass push up
through the cracks in their ceiling

gasping for breath.


The sun illuminates what should have been

a forest, a field, a silent sanctuary
and with images of buried pasts

we drive across the concrete tomb.


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

The Neighborhood Is Bleeding


So many times I find myself having an argument in my head with someone. In my head, I'm always shouting my obviously long and thought out reasons why they are so illogical and stupid and that I, a 19 year old illogical idiot myself, know EXACTLY what is wrong with them and why they are acting like a major asshole. Though these mock arguments are wonderfully enjoyable to think about, it is painfully frustrating knowing that I can probably never say those things to that person. All I want to say is "Back Off!" or "Maybe you should worry about your own life!" or usually "YOU SHOULD JUST STOP F^@%)#& WORRYING ABOUT EVERYTHING!"

It's just so frustrating having to hear about how wrong everything that I do is, or how inadequate I am, or how I see her too much. We're not puppets, we're people, and we have feelings and plans for ourselves. Why is it that people have the audacity to think that they can choose ANYTHING that has to do with another persons future, no matter the relationship or connection??? When did it become wrong to want to be happy instead of wealthy? Success does not equate to dollar signs. "Money can't buy me Love!" (Paul McCartney) Some people should learn how to LISTEN and actually consider that what they think is best just might not be what is desirable.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

My Memories Have A Shadow

Lets turn the grass into a bed
And rest our eyes a while.
The air is dry and sweet, but cold.
It doesn't carry your smell.
I feel you lying next to me
But I'm scared to open my eyes
For my mind knows my senses cheat,
and when I do, my fingers outline the
mat of grass left from your back.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

College Kids


I'm not where I want to be,
I'm not doing what I want to do,
I'm not who I want to be.
I'm part of a world that expects a Superman.
I'd be luck to be a Might Mouse.
The songs in my head never reach my hands,
and the passion in my heart is slowly turning to guilt.

Where did I go?
What happened to the simple love for life?
Suddenly nothing is allowed to be simple.
Everything means something
means something else
means something better
means blah blah BLAH!!!

I just want to have
peace,
clarity,
acceptance,
understanding.

"Someone please save us,
us college kids."

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Writers Block



The words are pulsing through my veins
and bursting at my finger tips.
They're singing in my head
and dancing close to paragraphs.

Where the hell is a pen?
I'm drowning from my lack of ink.

Focus!

Remember what you thought
it was really good.
How did it go again?

The car screeches to a halt
and I hunt the drawer for that
little dispenser of thought.

I rip the cap off
and throw the tip to the page...



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